Wait a minute! What did you just say? Oh, really? Was that supposed to be a compliment?
Unh, Unh, I'm finally opening my eyes and I'm taking what you just said, in the way that it was meant
Now, why'd you have to make me put on these shoes and go there?
Well, since we're both here - I'm gonna clear the air
I'm basically good-natured, I ain't one for confrontation
But it's obvious, you and I have got a Situation
It took a long time for me to open my eyes and admit
That walking away don't mean that you scared or that you quit
And I don't mind starting over again if it leads me back to my Self
Taking my Self down, dusting my Self off, getting off of somebody else's unsteady shelf
Baby Boo,
It may not matter much to you
But Friendship and loyalty
Mean a whole lot to me
Without asking, I opened up my heart's door and let you in
I've done it too many times before but I ain't doin' it again
Don't get excited
You just ain't invited
You done been evicted, put out, removed - Lease null and void,
I know you wasn't hired, but consider yourself unemployed
Scripture do say that you may not know when you entertainin' a stranger
But Lord 'ave Mercy! Somebody should'a warned me 'bout the danger
Of trusting folk who really ain't got no personal interest
In you, though they're quick to withdraw but never invest
For years, you been talkin' behind my back like it had a built-in microphone
I'm disconnectin' the speaker - if you wanna Evil Talk, then "E.T., Phone Home!"
Like Studio 54
I got Security at the door
If you ain't for me
If you don't adore me
Ain't no need for further discussion
Disrespect, eye rollin' or cussin'
No more put downs or giving unsolicited advice - thinking that you're being slick and discreet
I never asked for your opinion 'cause I don't take swimmin' lessons from somebody who got dry feet!
I'll still love you (from a distance) 'cause you is a Chile of God
If I pass you on the street, I'll wave or give you a nod
But baby, this time you done tore your drawers
You tried to take something that wasn't yours
And there simply weren't no need
For you to have that kinda greed
I shared confidences and fears with you, trusted you to hear it
But you wanted to take, bend, AND break my Spirit
And when it comes to the real of ME, I ain't lettin' you get near it
I'm just sayin' Boo,
You tried to hurt me but you was really hurtin' you
No more using my back
For target practice in your Knife Throwing Act
I wish you well but I just can't let you back in
Why would I invite that kind'a pain again?
Yes, I realize and I have to admit that friends can grow apart
You can take back what you loaned me but don't take pieces of my heart
Zora Neale Hurston once wrote, "Colored Women is the "Mules of the World" - Everybody think they got the right to be our bully
But Black Women bullying Black Women is a concept that I will never accept, understand, or grasp fully
I believe that God gave Sistahs big butts 'cause we got the Power of the "Bounce Back"
But understand, I am not a strong Woman, I am a Woman of Strength, because I am Black!
I'm Living Loud,
Joyous and Proud
I'm under new management
Your time came and went
Get up now, don't act faint
Can't you see, there's new plaster and paint?
No more put downs, petty criticisms, snide remarks, or complaint
This here used to be us: Friends - Now, it's where you ain't
I know that we've been standin' here for a while, and I truly appreciate your time
'Cause after this, it will just be "Hi" and "Bye" - life is too short and can flip on a dime
It took me too long to get to this Inner Place of Self Love and Self Satisfaction
Of not letting my Self be held hostage inside someone else's negative reaction
I've learned over the decades by stumblin', fallin', and trippin', that we are ALL Spiritual Beings walkin' a human path
But someone who says that they are your friend but talks behind your back, just don't add up - And don't try to call it the "New Math"
I don't think that a person really misses the person who they once called "friend"
I think that you miss the person who you thought you were after the friendship ends
I honestly liked the ease and easiness of calling you Sister
But calling you that now is too much of a Tongue Twister
I guess there will always be a space for you in my heart
We were friends for so long - we've each played a big part
In the Women that we both turned out to be
But it looks like God has ordained that we set each other free
What is friendship or Sisterhood if there isn't any trust?
I just can't hold on to anyone who continues to hurt me - I'll let go if I must
Okay Girl, I know I said a lot - thanks for listenin' - You take good care
And oh, you look great, you always have - I love your shoes and hair!
(Sigh) ... That wasn't easy for me to do but I think it went well
You never know with how some people are - I guess time will tell
But when people in your life purposely keep harmin' you
You've got to move away even if its the hardest thing to do
With a twist of your head, hand, and hips
(I know it's stereotypical - I'm just having fun)
Say these words with your back straight and a smile on your lips:
"Can't you see
I Got the Victory
See you later
Alli/Hater
I'm Soul Rooted and Standin' in Sacred Territory
Lovin' the Ground I Walk On - There's No Place Like ME!"
- Nikki Williams Thank You God for Your Grace
Thank You for Your Housewarming Gift of Self-Love
May we be the Love that we Seek
Bless us God, Bless those who are hurting and who only know to take it out on others as a way of easing their own pain
Bless us with the ability to Forgive for our Sake, Show us how to Release the anger and hurt, and Move on
Free us Dear God, from the prison of pain that threatens to keep our hearts under lock and key
May our shoes fit us well; and our Walk be made Easy
Ashe and Amen!
"Breathin' Free
No Boundaries
Lovin' the View that I see
Thank You God - There's No Place Like Me"
- Nikki Williams